It's so funny, yesterday was one of the best days I've had in years, and then I ended up being in one of the WORST meetings.... go figure...

I started the day at the Supreme Court building. There was a Prop 8 rally because the court was hearing testimony to over-rule the proposition. This is something I feel strongly about, even though I'm hetero. I think that everyone should be able to be married! There is nothing 'sacred' about the relationship between Donovan and I and our marriage is in no way 'threatened' by ANYONE getting married. In fact, there are plenty of 'regular' marriages that give marriage a bad name to begin with! The thing that I felt most strongly about the rally was that our side was all about love and equality and the other side (the marriage = 1 man & 1 woman side...) was just full of abuse! They were spouting how we were all going to hell and perverts and it was just ugly. The worst I heard from our side was a woman shouting "judge not lest you be judged (you idiots - said low enough that they couldn't hear on the other side - it was making me giggle).

Then I went and did the tourist thingy and rode the cablecars around. It's one of my favorite ways to get around San Francisco. I always learn something about the city or find some neat little place. It was a nice way to kill some time before the pie fight.

Then the pie fight!! It was soooo awesome! I was there alone and knew I had a meeting to go to so I couldn't participate but I had so much fun watching! (I even got just a bit of shaving cream on my sleeve for good measure! I couldn't go away COMPLETELY clean!) It felt so good to laugh as hard as I did. It seems like it's been ages since I felt human enough to laugh and really have a good time.

Then the meeting. I officially made my 30 days yesterday. I would have more but I had that unfortunate relapse 48 hours after leaving rehab (when I fuck something up, I do a good job!!). I wanted the group meeting to be the perfect end to the perfect day but I was just bored! Normally we talk about recovery and I get a little bit out of it but last night it was a bunch of talk about legal cases and construction work and I didn't even end up sharing. The funny thing about meetings, no matter if they are AA or continuing recovery, it seems like the ones you look forward to are the ones that are duds and the ones you don't want to go to are the ones you get the most out of... Story of my life!!

Hugz!

Jen