Did you know that HBO is doing a documentary on the alcoholic??? I am watching 'relapse' people and sooooooooo thinking that they could be talking about me. There are so many people that decided to drink again and I'm one of them.... I just didn't want to stop drinking. I don't know why, I just decided that the f'it's (f= a four letter word) had more power over me than everything. f-it cause I want to drink, f-it cause I am not attracted to my husband, f-it because I just have no idea what to do next....

My husband decided to tell me that my family decided to not keep in touch with me because they were tired of me drunk dialing them and I believed him, then once I talked to my sister, I found out that he just said that because he was piss@d... so there you go, he's mad at me for being addicted to alcohol and then he takes my family away and I believe him because my self-esteem is shot... session finished

Mommy, I wish I had been honest about what my life was like and I wished you had not listened to my husband instead of me.... hope we talk, soon....

huggs!!! Jen